I dunnooooo...poetry ...maybe... later :)

I'm borrreeddddd! I haven't done any writing in a long time and since it's still WAY too hot to take photos I'm not going to be posting any pictures for a little while more. Buuuuut in the meantime I'll post a few poems in the coming weeks. So at least there's something to look forward to. And the only reason I'm not posting one right now is because they're all on paper and handwritten soooo I'm gonna procrastinate and make you wait lol. Anyways. See you soon! *bounces away*

Aurora, Co Massacre...

  Okay, honestly. This is just getting ridiculous. What are these cruel people trying to prove by killing people? I just don't get it, I'll never get it. What it would take inside to be able to commit such horrendous acts. It's simply heartbreaking. I can't imagine the pain the families are going through. It's unbelievable, to put yourself in the position of a family member or friend of the victim's is impossible. It's one thing when accidents happen or health problems, even. But to die this way, there's no excuse. My heart goes out to all the families there. I can't read about the victim's without crying from the overwhelming sadness that one evil man decided to inflict. There's NO EXCUSE. So many people and families are hurt and killed by people like this and all these so called "experts" talk about how bad their lives were and how they needed help and that's why they got to such a horrible level. "Not having the support or getting the help they needed" is a stupid excuse. I know of a LOT of friends of my own who go through troubles in their lives that never consider such a horrific thing. Not only that, they don't make everyone around them suffer. We need to stop making excuses for people who consciously do these acts. It's ridiculousness....

  Ok, enough ranting... right now I just want to say something really short about Jessica Ghawi, and the little Veronica (Moser?). First of all...Veronica was only 6 years old! The fact that someone so young had her life cut short because of this man is despicable... To the surviving family, I wish I could say something that would make the hurt go away, but I cannot...I'm just sorry for what this man did and I want you to know that my heart and best wishes go out to your family.  
  
  Secondly, there's Jessica. To your family... I again wish that something I could do or say would bring your daughter/friend/sister (ect) back to you. I would do it, I would give my life for any of the families that lost their loved ones. I would. I honestly would. To go from one horrific event, SURVIVE, and end up not at the next, I can't imagine what you're all going through. I just hope that all the love that you recieve from people over the world brings you comfort over the tragic loss. I'm so deeply sorry. I know you'll never read this, but I hope that if you do, it brings you some sort of comfort. The life and stories of people like your daughter give me reason to live my life to the fullest. To make sure every day counts and that I'm living for all the right reasons. I know in so many ways I will fail, but I will not give up, and if I die before my time I hope that I lived my life as best as I can. Again my best wishes and my heart goes out to you for your pain.

  Kay.. I know it was jumbled and junk... but I had to say something... it was eating me alive...(For those of you who do not know, I was in the mall during the shooting at the Westroads Mall Shooting in Omaha, Ne Dec 07. So when I hear about these stories they hit a personal chord so-to-speak) Thanks to any who listened <3 




Why Justin Beiber, Why?

Ok, I get it, this kid was talented for such a young guy when he came out originally..I get it, I do, even I was like "Wow this kid sounds like a girl and is pretty good for his age..." blah blah. But it got old...SO old... SO fast. I mean, literally only a few weeks/months after he came to us did he get old. So ladies (and some gentlemen) STOP IT! *slaps you all* STOP IT NOW! We've had enough, the rest of society should not have to suffer from your lack of musical taste and constant over playing. Enough. I do NOT need to hear his song played over the radio at work (which just started, and 3!!! of his songs repeatedly throughout the day none-the-less) or anywhere else for that matter. I've heard enough, he always sounds the same and his voice didn't change like it should have (creepppppy) PLEASE ....PLEASE PLEASEEEEEE... make him go away!

Scared...

Alright so, I've been dealing with some pretty bad health problems a lot over the past few years, and it hasn't been getting any better. For those of you who do not know, I have a couple heart problems that I don't know how to spell so I'm not going to try, lol, along with fibromyalgia and a very rare blood disease called Polycythemia vera. This has been seriously effecting and even threatening my life in so many ways. I cant even tell you how many times I've been to the hospital this year alone. It's rediculous, and I HATE the hospital! But anyway, I'm talking with my doctor about a surgery that is suppose to fix one of the bigger heart problems. Yep, this means heart surgery. And it's scary, but the chance to go back to living a somewhat normal life is hard to pass by. And although with my conditions this surgery has more risks than normal, I believe it is going to be worth the risk. So yeah, I'm scared... Sooooo freaking scared. Maybe if you hold my hand when I go in I'll feel better? lol I'll survive it, right? I will.... I know I know... Yeah... heh. *twitch* ......That's all for now ...*bounces away*...

Nerdy Nostalgia

Nerdy Nostalgia... You know, like, when you watch old cartoons and you get that warm fuzzy "I REMEMBER THIS!! BECK WHEN....blah di blah" feeling. Yeah that's how I've been feeling all week. I've been using my Wii Nintendo account thingy for buying old games from the Zelda series. Haha, nothing like an old game to make you feel old and happy, then old and sad because you realize how old you're becoming. And I don't think it's much about the games themselves, I think it's all about the music in the games, but whatever it is. it's nice to have. But yepp.. anyways... this was fun :3 That's what I've been up to! Be jealous!